Assalamualaikum, 

In this post I would like to touch upon a question that I always hear while growing up, "What do you want to be?". It used to affect me a lot when I was younger, because I was one of those who had no idea what I want to be and what I want to do. Seeing all my friends knowing what they want was amazing, they were amazing. They know what they want and they're moving forward towards it, they were always one step-ahead of me... That's what I thought, it's not like that anymore though. Alhamdulilah those kind of feelings have decreased immensely as I grow up, part of it was thanks to my parents, they were the type to support everything that I do. Even when I had no idea what kind of career path I want to go for, they didn't panic nor did they blame me.

"It's okay, you're still young" 

"Don't worry, Allah swt has plans for you" 

"You'll find something soon, why are you so worried", 

these were the things they used to tell me (and they still do), and they were right. What was I so worried about, so what if I didn't know what I want to be, because to me that's something I have no control over. Yes, there are some people who know exactly what they want and they either have achieved it or are on their way to achieving it. But that's their path, that's their journey. Why was I so badly wanting to be where they're at? Why was I struggling to fit a square into a circle hole? It was probably because I had only looked at others and what they had achieved, it's true that if you have a goal you achieve lots of things along the way, I thought I had no goal at all, but I was wrong. I realized I was the type to have not just one goal, but tens and hundreds. After I achieve a goal, I would make a new one and head towards it. By the end of the day, I am moving forward, but just differently and that's okay. I've been trying to stop myself from looking at others and start looking at what I have achieved, it's good to look at others for inspiration but hey! you need to give yourself some credit too. Honestly my advice is, keep doing whatever it is that you do, be open-minded and don't be afraid to try out new things. Don't be afraid of failing and most importantly don't dwell on your failures, learn from it and move forward. By the will of Allah swt you'll get where you're supposed to be eventually.

So if you were to ask me this question now, my answer would still be the same, "I don't know". But what I know for now is that I want to be strong and happy, I want to be a person who's grateful no matter the situation and even though I don't have a clear view of where I'm heading I know for sure that I am on my way somewhere and with each step, my path gets clearer and clearer, and most importantly I ask Allah swt that whichever path we are on, it is the right path, a path that leads us nowhere other than Jannah, Ameen.

That's all for this post! Thanks for your time and I do hope this motivates you in any way :)